My Request, Destiny and the Divine Order

Desire, Destiny, and the Divine command

Hello friends, I am Ehsan, a traveler from the 7th legion of Bushehr branch, with the help of Guide assistant Mr. Hamid Moradi.

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The story of my addiction to drugs started with my unreasonable desires; I wanted to accomplish more [tasks] within a short time, so I thought to myself that it would be better to use drugs to progress in my work, to do more work, and to use the energy stored in my body. So I started to abuse narcotic pills.

At the beginning of taking the pills, my efficiency multiplied in such a way that my wallet did not close with that huge sum of money. I was happy with myself, thinking that I had found the solution to my problems. I had this very plan that after I achieved sufficient income, I would abandon my addiction using the so-called “cold turkey” method. After a few months, I told myself time is ripe  to be liberated from addiction. Yet, I had no experience of stopping narcotics and its consequences including the pain of “cold turkey”, or withdrawal symptoms, or hangover

On the first day of discontinuation, after 20 hours from the last time of use, I gradually felt withdrawal symptoms, and after 12 hours, it reached its peak. I just found out what a dangerous game I had got into. But I had not yet realized the depth of the tragedy. I started surfing the web, reading and watching educational programs on drugs quitting, but it was just the beginning. My desire had indirectly led me into the valley of addiction, while I thought I wanted something else. Now it was the time for Destiny to play its part.

From the first six months of my struggling with drugs, my desire was to quit addiction. That was all I wanted, but I had set foot on a path from which it was not so easy to return. Time and time again, I resorted to various methods to stop consuming, most of which were my own innovates, since I considered myself a total intellect. With a little research, and reading a few books I wanted to ignore the experience of others, and do everything myself.

It was my destiny that for twelve years, I was seeking a method for addiction treatment; or freedom from drugs. And I did not succeed, until a critical moment, and at a juncture, the Divine Command was issued, and it took all my possessions, so that I could understand the crisis where I was in; and so I entered Congress 60, the place where I had been familiar with 11 years ago, but I did not enter for some reasons, mainly because I thought I could handle it myself.

Now, after six months of entering Congress 60, I have just been struck by the fact that I have realized the Divine Command is sometimes very painful, and the pain has been and is necessary for my refinement, and revival. The cocoon I have woven around me due to unreasonable and mostly corrupt desires has become very thick, and needs a lot of forces and it must be, unavoidably, painful to be torn; and, so that that beautiful butterfly can come out. All this force and pain must originate from inside, otherwise, it will cause damage to the pupil, and cause him to die.

There is a statement reading that an egg creates life if it is broken from the inside, but a life is lost in case it is broken from the outside. Realizing this fact that hardships and pressures are vital for my cultivation and purification requires a lot of efforts and education, and I am at the beginning of my journey.

Written by: traveler Ehsan, 7^th legion

Translated by: traveler Azad