We grasped any string so that our life would not be destroyed; however, the end of this mirage was not clear to us, it merely drew us to the depth of darkness. Darkness means differently to different people and everyone has experienced it due to their ability and capacity, one may experience poverty, one joblessness, one opium and one like us experienced Ice.
A [poisonous] seed grows when it is laid in a dark bed, otherwise it won’t grow. This poisonous seed for us was Ice, because before consuming Ice, my traveler used to consume methadone and opium extract and I could deal with these addictive drugs, but I could never deal with Ice because it was impossible to deal with it.
This agenda reminded me of my bitter life time in the past when I was doomed to be alone and live in isolation and I escaped from people and their heart-breaking words. I was starving and only darkness was appearing.
I was heartbroken by doctors’ words, those who did not know any answer and had not any reasonable solution for addiction. It was a heavy burden on me. However, I felt hopeful and I was not disappointed. Those days existed in my life so that I now appreciate the great gift of Congress60, as Master Dezhakam (in educational CD of Amazing) mentioned: “Ease comes alongside every hardship”. God saved us from all the hardships of addiction and familiarized us with the unique method of DST [for addiction treatment] and unique educations provided by Master Dezhakam.
I do not know whether this favour was a response to our prayers or job, but what I know is that it was a great answer which returned the spirit of life to us.
It is not an easy task to see the ease of life when you are in trouble. Because we were involved with heavy ice addiction and because of its consequences, I could not see the gifts of God in my life, I had forgotten them. Maybe because of those gifts I could tolerate that situation, or only because of those gifts I accompanied my family. I was always nagging and complaining. I always accused God of being guilty for my life and I thought God had determined that life for me. I always asked him why me? I was just a narrow-minded person and I saw a limited scope of everything, however God had seen everything around me.
I was previously frustrated only by uttering the word “Ice”; however, now I am grateful to God because addiction treatment takes place very easily in my country in Congress60. With the grace and favour of Master Dezhakam and his well-respected family members, the families (drug-consumer families) like us can revive again and join society.
Written by companion Saeede, Ahvaz branch of Congress60, legion 2.
Translated by Elahe