I Counted the Moments to Receive the Orange Shawl

I counted the moments to receive the orange shawl (becoming a guide-assistant)  

Long ago, when the result of the guide assistants test came out, I counted the moments to get the shawl and experience it, and I often thought about those moments. Because every time I saw other loved ones in the academy branch to get a shawl, a strange feeling was created inside me, my heart was pounding and tears flowed from my eyes unintentionally, and in those moments, I longed for this place until, thank God, I also got to the point and I hope I can get God's satisfaction by truly serving in this position.

The night before I went to the academy branch, I was very excited, on the other hand, this change of position and taking this shawl is a burden for me because it has a lot of responsibilities and that was why I was a little scared. I asked God to give me the awareness, and the ability to serve honestly in this position, and this prayer of Prophet Moses (PBUH) was constantly on my mind and I whispered it to myself: ”O my Lord! Expand for me my chest (with assurance). And ease my task for me. And untie the knot from my tongue, so that they may understand my speech!”

Thank God the promised day came. On the morning of Monday, June 29^th, 2020, on the way to the academy branch, I was overwhelmed with my thoughts, constantly praying for myself in my mind, and praying to God for the success of gaining a deeper awareness and understanding, the love of service and the pupils in a righteous way. I prayed for all those who wish to be in this position, especially the good and hard-working members of our legions, and for the liberation of the travelers from the bondage of addiction. 

I prayed for my dear guide-assistant, who gave us such love that made us eager for this position. According to Master Sardar; Our desire is not what we see and want, but it is what we do not see and do not want. We all were wandering and frustrated from anywhere the day we entered Congress60. Our only goal was our travelers’ liberation from the shackles of addiction. All I wanted was the blissful state for my traveler, and it was my dear guide-assistant who planted the seed of this place in my heart, watered it with her love, informed me of the blessings of this place, motivated me to try, and God gifted me this very beautiful and blessed position. Thanks, thanks, thanks to conduct this huge action.

There were many beautiful moments in the academy, and the presence of the members of our legion and dear friends created a sense of intimacy and goodness. After the speeches of Mr. Dezhakam and other loved ones, the songs of Congress 60 were heard. These moments were the most beautiful and purest moments of my life. In the Wednesday sessions, which I sometimes attended with honor, I always wanted the liberation of my traveler, and I cried when the song of liberation was played, being eager to achieve liberation. But that day I was experiencing a different feeling and following these pure feelings, I eagerly reached the shawl of guide-assistant by the hands of Mr. Dezhakam. Thank you Mr. Dezhakam for giving me the opportunity to serve.

On the way back, I just thanked God and felt that I had received a great gift from God and that God had given me such a beautiful gift as a result of all my patience and efforts, and after ending the very hardships that addiction had inflicted on our lives. Thank you all the loved ones who helped me in this way.

O God,  now that you allowed me to be in this position, help me to be an effective person, a faithful servant to progress the goals of Congress60 and to uphold its sanctities and laws. Amen.

Written by:  Companion Marziyeh B.

Translated by: Traveler Azad

Edited by: Companion Marjan